Monday, November 09, 2009

Sad

Today is just too sad of a day for me to write much of anything. I can hardly believe it has been four weeks. It feels like eternity and at the same time feels like yesterday. I feel like I should be able to do better than this short post. John deserves better than this. All I can do today is cry.

10 comments:

Cindi said...

I have no words, other than I'm so sorry that you and your family have to go through this and I love you and am praying for you.

Lucy said...

Completely understandable. I hope you know that your 'bloggy friends' completely understand and anything your write is fine.

I haven't had a chance to comment on your other posts because NaBloPoMo has me behind but I am loving Frankie, that puppy is too cute and he is going to drive poor Roscoe 'Looney' the little stinker.

footsack said...

I'm so sorry! I'm surprised you even blogged.'((hugs))

Becky said...

Oh Mom. No one expects you to post today, and John The King sure wouldn't either. I want to hug you.

Christine said...

Susan and Mom come over for coffee so that helpede cheer me up.

The Invisible Mo said...

I wish sometimes I lived closer. I could call in sick and we could sit and cry our eyes out together and we would both feel better. We could even put on a sad movie if you wanted.
Don't feel bad, Chris, for feeling sad and blue and having a good crying jag. It's good for you as you travel through this period of loss. No one that loves you would expect anything different.
Big (((((hugs)))))).

diana said...

don't put those kind of expectations on yourself. four weeks is a very short time to process it all, to grieve, and to try to put your life back on some kind of regular track.

give yourself grace. you're in my prayers.

Melanie said...

I'm so sorry Auntie Chris. I can't imagine losing the love of my life, and I hate that you have to go through it, hate that he's not here.

Love you, and I'm praying for you.

Avaelyn said...

Auntie Chris, I'm so sorry. I honestly can't imagine what you're going through. Just try not to expect too much from yourself, okay? We all understand.

Eve said...

For me it's been a year and a half. I still have the feeling that it was yesterday or it was an eternity ago. And I still have days when I just really need to cry. I didn't let myself cry much during the first year because of all the other crap that was happening in the family. I didn't think my daughter and her kids needed to deal with my tears. That was a mistake. Crying helps to relieve the build-up of pain and fill the empty spot just a little. So go ahead and enjoy a good cry whenever you feel the need.
Love ya,
Eve