Tuesday, March 09, 2010

Five Months

It is five months today. There is not really much to say except that I miss John just as much as last month and the month before and the month before and the month before and the month before....I am sad and I wish he could come home.

Mom is on the same ward in the hospital that John was in when he was first diagnosed. If I look across the hall I can see his room. I try not to look. He was admitted just about this time three years ago. That is when the long goodbye began.

10 comments:

The Invisible Mo said...

:-(
.....nothing to say to that, except I'm sorry.

Melanie said...

I'm sorry too. Love you.

Michaela said...

Im SO sorry about John. One thing I dread the most is losing my husband. I was intially too scared to even love him, in case one day he died. Chris you are a very brave woman. Please take extra good care of yourself right now. Hugs, Michaela xx

Toad said...

hi mom, wanted you to know that i'm thinking about you today. i've been thinking about dad a lot today and what he would have gotten out of a trip like this. i keep asking myself how would dad feel, what words of encouragement would dad say, what would dad do. but then i thought, well it would be the same thing that god would have wanted him to do. so i'm just trying to do that.

Christine said...

Angela, dad was so proud of you and proud that you were doing this trip. He thought it was fantastic. I do too.

Becky said...

Oh you two have me bawling again now. And I just calmed myself down after that dumb movie. I give up.

Love you.

Sue said...

I am so sorry Chris. I pray she won't be there long.

Momisodes said...

I am so sorry you're having to relive being in this part of the hospital. My thoughts are with you.

Chandana said...
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Michaela said...

Hi Chris, I just stopped by to say I am thinking of you. I hope your Mom is OK. I hope you are managing OK. xx Michaela