Thursday, January 14, 2010

Crying

Today my brother-in-law came and pulled the old bathtub out. Next week I will have the new Whirlpool jet tub that John ordered installed. I decided to go ahead with this. I know that he would want me too.

In November all his brothers came and put the siding on his garage. He would have loved seeing that project completed. All his tools sit where he laid them.

The thing is, where he is, he is not missing this stuff. I just miss him. All these things bring the reality home.

Sometimes the dog and I watch the garage door, hoping that reality would change and he would come through that door humming a tune like he always did. If I close my eyes tight enough I can almost see him.

I tell God that this is just too hard.

9 comments:

Sue said...

Big hugs!

Becky said...

It is too hard. I'm so sorry.

And I do the same thing. Look at my driveway (or whatever has made me think of him) and imagine him there. So close, and so far.

The Invisible Mo said...

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There's just nothing to add to this.

footsack said...

I am so very sad for you.

Unknown said...

No words. Just hugs. But it still doesn't seem adequate.

Lucy said...

There are no words to comfort you but I wanted to let you know I am thinking of you and sending you a prayer.

Melanie said...

I'm so sorry. We love you guys so much, and are continuing to pray.

Bamm-ela said...

So very, very poignant. While it may not bring comfort to you, I think you are serving as a reminder to all of us that those we treasure are so very precious. Thank you for sharing and allowing your vulnerability to inspire us. I wish you peace.

Anonymous said...

vvery poignant is right. i'm sorry this is all so difficult. sending loving thoughts your way.